One Word
My mom loves chocolate, but she has an uncanny ability to make one bar last for weeks. I may be flesh of her flesh, but why oh why did I not inherit this ability to prolong gratification?
Then there's Jim, who loves words & ideas as much as I do, but always stops to *think* before expressing himself (a completely foreign concept to me). During his lengthy phone pauses I often think we’ve been disconnected... nope, still thinking it through. This, of course, has often made me raving mad. I want answers & I want them now. And in my anger, he has the audacity to hold me to everything I say, thought through or not.
Yes, yes, I have a problem. Lots, I'm sure. But, one of my [capital P] Problems that causes [lowercase p] problems galore is this inability to Pause before ________ (a million answers fit this blank).
This is why my One Word chose me. It has been a week(plus) since I expressed my intention to focus on One Word in this still-fairly-new year. Lack of blog follow-up has definitely not meant lack of total follow-up…or at least not in this case (no queries about the exercise intentions, please).
The word PAUSE has glued itself to my brain. Yes, I need to Pause.
I love the concept of Pause, and all that it encompasses.
It’s Heroes night. I love the show for many reasons. One of them is Hiro. This insanely cute little Japanese man has the ability to freeze time. Everything stops mid-breath, mid-word, mid-movement, and he is able to interact within this Still frame of a Paused world. Calmly, serenely. Sigh. If only... My time freezing powers are non-existent, but there’s still something to this. I honestly think I can experience the same *sort* of calm within. If I pause…consider…slow down…wait
…watch…listen…breathe…
I will gain the space & time, even perspective, to Act more than I React. An infinitely better "if only."
No magic, but huge Power. My boys would love the pause to Calm when I find that they’ve flooded the back yard...again. Perhaps I can even pause to Enjoy the muddy moment when (unfortunatley, not if) this happens. Jim needs my pause to Appreciate; he needs to realize how much I truly am grateful for all that he is & does. He’d also enjoy the pause to Consider when I [perhaps!] relinquish some staunch opinions in the step-back to-see-what’s-truly-best.
I want to do all of that, but I especially want to Pause to Serve. Life flies by. We all know that. I want to know that AND know that I have looked for ways to help & give every week, if not every day, of my life. I know that I need to Pause to step away from "Me" in order to do this more fully. I want to notice needs - listen to people, hear what they're not saying, then act. But, first the magic calming of the rush, the pause to step Beyond.
Of course, this will take time. I love having a blog that will always allow a pause for Remember. Another genius remember tactic - Annalisa pasted her word on her mirror. Ali posted hers on a wall. There is definite power in seeing something every day. I think I’ll follow suit with this sign (above) that I made.
Thank you to the other Words that have inspired me to Focus on my own.
Aunt Judy – Gratitude & follow-up post
Mandi - Breathe (great minds think alike!)
Annalisa – Positive
Michelle – Free
Ali – Peace
*Have you chosen a word yet?*